Kit-Katt

As i sit and look back on what was me and you I start to see the cracks and flaws that i thought were only few I see that as i pushed you pulled as i pulled you went away The cracks were massive holes with the endless flaws As i sit back and think of the good It think of what of the should would could Should have i stayed Would you have loved me enough? Could have i trusted you truly As i sit there and think I know the it was for the best, I know that i did love you, but couldn't love you enough I know that you were wrong for me and me for you As i sit here thinking about the past I knew we wouldn't last But what done is done

To say goodbye is hard I loved you I need you You broke me Goodbye You were my first love You were my rock You stole my heart Goodbye You left me alone You left me in the dark I'm turning away Goodbye You don't deserve me You no longer have me You have lost me Goodbye Goodbye is hard Goodbye is right Goodbye is forever Goodbye is now!

You make me smile You me make me glow You make me giggle You make me love You make my head spin You give me butterflies You make me feel You make me love I love you!

I have recently come to term with the fact that I am in fact not fat as I think I am. I am beautiful to others and that I am indeed worth something. All I have to do is believe this and tell myself this every day! I have allowed myself to be treated with respect by other and give it to myself. I have to find way in allowing myself to be validated and not let men walk over me and take what they want and leave me, as they have done so before. This is a big change in my life, and this will be hard for me to not seek male approval by allowing them to take what they want. I just hope I can do it, because I AM WORTH IT. I  just need to show the wor